A few years ago, I remember reflecting with my therapist that I didn’t have very many regrets from my life. Now, I realize, what I meant to say, there weren’t many things I did that I regret. I am slowing beginning to see there are lots of moments of inaction that I regret. Moments I wanted to say something or do something but I was afraid of doing or saying it wrong…so I did nothing.
This past week, I have been practicing giving myself permission to make mistakes and trust that when (not if) I make mistakes, I get the opportunity to repair the mistake and reconnect with i. It has been powerful. It helps ease the feel of trying to do something new or hard.
It is helping me be a better mom, wife, friend, ally, and human being. I will make mistakes. And I am learning, I am strong enough to repair them and reconnect with myself and others when they happen. Mistakes are no longer failures to be feared but opportunities for growth.
Please enjoy this bit of greenery that has been making me so happy this winter. I have tried year after year to keep a rosemary plant alive through the winter. I once saw the most beautiful rosemary topiary but didn’t buy it because it costs $50 and I was sure I would kill it. So, I have practiced each and every winter since before having kids so that when I see another beautiful rosemary topiary, I can buy it. This is the first winter I have kept a rosemary plant alive. There is hope that someday I can have that beautiful rosemary topiary of my dreams.
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